Do you ever wonder what would happen if there were an answer to all the mysteries in, and about life. This purpose of living, learning, loving, hating, and death, answered simply and completely in easy layman's terms, what would that mean?

Yesterday a yellow breasted chat bird flew into my window while I was on the computer. I didn't realize what it was until I went downstairs to do laundry and found it dead. I live in a three story apartment building on the second floor. I couldn't believe it was actually dead!

Weird stuff like that always happens to me. It's usually sparrows that crash into my windows, or crows screaming at the top of their lungs about God knows what scaring the shit out of me. But never has a bird that beautiful ever died from smashing into my window.

Beginner Writers Block

I've kept a journal for years and I'm thinking of writing a book. I've tried to publish a short story narrative on my "adventures" and have been rejected twice. I know that it's a given to be rejected but my confidence has a leek. 

I was advised to start a blog, but I have know idea where to begin. So, if there is anyone out there that knows anything about first time publishing advise is welcome.

I just finished watching, "Water" a movie about widows in India. I knew their customs were unusual but I couldn't believe that 7 year old's get married let alone shunned and sold for sex. I googled it along with other blogs about religion. I happened up on a news article about a woman that starved her two old for 20 days to release the demons. He died! He was probably cutting molars. I also read up on CNN's religious blogs. America changes image of God, Christians beating their wives...etc. It is true, we are a limited minded species. We have only what we're given and then take away or add to philosophies, theories, what ever feels good, but Jesus Christ who the hell starves a kid in the name of God? I cried. 

I was raised in a cult and know how easy it is to believe in something because someone you trust tells you to, and I know how hard it is to be deprogrammed. Its hell! But, what do you do with the images of God from all around the world? What would he, or she, or it look like? Would the devil and Jesus be attached some how to his face or back or would they just be crawling on their bellies behind the Gandhi Hindu Muslim Christian Buddha three gods in one father son holy ghost, KKK leaders and all of them dangling dead raped abused kids while laughing and crying at the same time and so sad and happy that we just don't get it? Will we ever?

 We need more Mandela's, more Mother Teresa's, more Martin Luther King's. Someone with enough balls, wisdom and compassion to make a difference. Some one who doesn't give a shit about hurting someone's feelings.